Rio de Janeiro- Pao do Acucar
Rio de Janeiro- Corcovado
Fortaleza- Dragao do Mar
Fortaleza Juxtaposition- From a Favela looking toward Beira Mar
Rio de Janeiro- Pao do Acucar
Rio de Janeiro- Corcovado
Fortaleza- Dragao do Mar
Fortaleza Juxtaposition- From a Favela looking toward Beira Mar
The only thing my friend told me about her before arriving was that she was 89 years old, lived with one son, and “was very very old”. I was expecting a tired, worn woman whose age could be seen in the lines of her face and the gray of her hair. I was wrong. When we arrived Dona Francisca greeted us at the door with the smile and energy of a young adult hosting a house party. She embraced me with the strength of a long lost friend who doubles as a body builder. She scurried around the house pulling out (heavy) wooden chairs for us to sit, showing pictures of her family and Jesus (many many pictures of Jesus), putting fruit on the table for us to eat and guiding us through her home. I was mesmerized by this woman. At 89 where did she find her strength and energy? At 30 I was ready for my mid-afternoon nap!
that Dona Francisca had birthed 22 children in her own home. Her husband (who passed 24 years ago) cut the umbilical cord at each birth. She raised all 22 children in her home, cooked meals every day, washed all of their clothes, ensured that they all had an education and raised them in the Catholic faith. She also helped her husband plant crops, grow and harvest those crops, and raise and slaughter animals so her children would always be well fed. What? Who was this super woman? I think I spent the entire afternoon with my mouth gaped wide open in amazement at her vitality.
then that I noticed the lines on her face. They weren’t the lines of old age though. She still has much life to live. They were the lines of challenge and struggle. They were the lines of birthing children without pain killers or a nurse/doctor to assist. They were the lines of planting and tending crops in the hot northeastern Brasil sun. They were the lines of cooking and cleaning day in and day out for 22 children and a husband. They were the lines of her life. And, each line had its own story to tell. They tell the story of struggle, pain, challenge and frustration. But also the story of joy, love, laughter, family and contentment. They are the lines of the beautiful struggle.
I once had a boyfriend where every second was a trial but at the same moment every second presented an amazing opportunity for growth. A friend from college called the relationship “the beautiful train wreck”. But after 6 years of small derailments but no crash and burn I began to think of our relationship as “the beautiful struggle”. It is fitting that one of the first albums he introduced me to was hip hop artist Talib Kwali’s “The Beautiful Struggle”. This theme of juxtaposition has reappeared frequently in my life- when I studied with the Aboriginal people in Australia, when I lived on the Navajo Nation, living with and loving people who struggled with deep depression, and now again working with PRECE in northeastern Brasil. Every day is a beautiful struggle. 
Who wouldn’t consider it a struggle to live without running water, without enough money to pay the electrical bill, with only 2 seasons- one where there is not a drop of rain and one where the rain never ceases- but where neither permit the soil to yield enough crops for an impoverished family to make a living? Who wouldn’t consider it a struggle to live in a community where the government cannot provide paved roads, adequate school buildings, more than one teacher for all grades or access to technology? This life is a struggle.
But, when many Americans and wealthier Brasilians visit the rural areas where PRECE has its
roots the struggle is masked by the beauty and happiness of the people. They come away with such a positive impression of the communities and say things like, “they might not have resources… but they are so happy” or “why are we trying to help them… they smile the whole time and we are the ones who are always depressed”. It’s true- the people of the PRECE communities are smiling, happy, loving, and surrounded by those they care for. Their life is beautiful.
It’s a beautiful struggle.
So, how do we hold these two seemingly contrasting ideas in tension? How do we live within the juxtaposition?
In many of my missiology and international development classes we discussed that people from the “developed world” do a great disservice when they visit communities in the “developing world” if they fail to stay involved in partnerships because of the remark, “but they are happy”. I’ve learned over time that, yes, the people of the PRECE communities are happy- primarily because they have their loved ones
close to them- but their joy and happiness is also plagued by an uphill battle to gain access to resources. This uphill battle wrought with pain, disappointment and even anger is not often shared with visitors who “pop in” for a week or two. But, it is ever present.
I have learned that we are all actors- each and every one of us. Sometimes we hide the pain, struggle and disappointment behind the face of peace, love, joy, and happiness. These seemingly contrasting emotions are constantly juggled and balanced creating the beautiful struggle.